“From the end of the earth I will cry to You when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.” Psalm 61:2
Have you ever had a Monday that just comes out swinging…before you’ve even rubbed the sleep from your eyes or had a cup of coffee? Mercy! This week greeted me with one of those Mondays. It took every ounce of self-discipline I have in me, and major portions of God’s grace (which He promises is sufficient for me!), to stay calm and carry on. Anyone who knows me well knows that the past few years I have gotten so I cannot multitask well at all. Blame it on the Fibro…meno…age…whatever. I simply get overwhelmed when too many things happen at once, and I can’t deal with it all. Then all to easily, the tension and anxiety try to take over. I’ve had it with it. Really, I have. Though it is a pain (literally), God has allowed this Fibromyalgia to be part of my life. We all age, and with age comes issues. I’m just tired of feeling like a rattled wimp. The reality is that I can not do many of the things I used to, and the stamina is not there, but God still intends for me to live a victorious life…over my issues…an abundant life…in spite of my issues. So, there was a lot of chatter going on here this past Monday. A lot of speaking God’s word out loud. A lot of reminding God of His promises…that He tells me His grace is sufficient, and His power is made perfect in my weakness. There was a lot of just stopping and breathing, remembering that He is in control of it all.
Along with the March winds, the winds of change are beginning to blow around here. It’s good change, very good. But any change shakes up our paradigm. It’s not what we are used to. Especially when you like routine and order. Who? Me? Nothing is supposed to stay the same forever. That would get boring. Change can be exciting; especially when you know, and can see God’s hand in it all. I want to enjoy every moment God blesses me with. I want to be the blessing to those around me. I want to marvel at how God is going to work all this out. I may not have the energy or strength to keep up with it all like I’d like to, but where God leads, He also provides…all we need.
I can choose to let His peace prevail, or be a stressed mess. I have to surrender my tendencies to need everything on order, and just “let it go”! I need to live Philippians 4, and rejoice in the Lord always…don’t be anxious for anything…take everything to Him in prayer…be thankful…and His peace that is beyond understanding will keep my heart and mind through Christ Jesus. He promises in Isaiah 40:31, when we wait on Him…rest, trust in Him, that our strength will be renewed, we will not be weary.
Are the March winds blowing any changes your way? Hide God’s word in your heart. Take everything to Him in prayer. He will strengthen and sustain you. He keeps His promises.